Trying.

So I went yesterday and tested with the City of Surprise to be a Communications dispatcher. There were about 300 other people there. No pressure. But I think I did fairly well! Actually I think I did really well. I was surprised how I did. That doesn't mean I'll get called. They are only going to take the top 5% or something like that of the people who passed. It would be an eight month process. Good times.
I also applied to Discover card. A friend of mine told me they were hiring. And I got called and answered some questions for them. They informed me that the class would start in late January and end late February early March and did I have any conflicts. I was like, "Well, I will be having a baby around that time, but other than that I'm free."
It's tough. But we'll figure something out. Everything is going to work out fine. If I have to be a telemarketer for a while. I know most of the people in my family would disown me if I did that, but gotta pay the bills somehow! Geesh!
Other than that, things going great! Baby Aidan is getting more and more active, James has been putting together more ideas for Arizona Curriculum Theater and I'm happy.
Trying to figure out my financial situation and James has also been trying to help me with that which is nice, but I'm trying to stay in a good mood for the baby's sake. I don't want things happening before they are suppose to!

Thanksgiving.

Crazy that this is the first Thanksgiving that I have with James. I feel like he has always been in my life. Not in the bad way of , "God we've been together so long!" No I mean in the "You've always been here, because I've been waiting for you". I'm so happy and thankful that he is in my life! I love him so much!
We went and hung out with my family this morning! James got to meet most of my mom's siblings and her mother! My Grandma tells James that she's heard how tall and handsome he is and that she hasn't been lied to and then she says, "When are you getting me Diamondbacks tickets?" Yup. That's my Grandma!
So I take him around Pioneer Park in Mesa. A park that I grew up going to. I show him the Train that is still there that I use to be able to climb all over. Now it's gated off because people hurt themselves and people started peeing in it and it houses stray cats. I pointed out where the airplane use to be that again we could climb all over before they removed it. I then described the Western town that was there too! There was this little thing that looked like a western town, it had walkways and different signs above the doorways and you could climb onto the second story and have shootouts and stuff! Man. That use to be the coolest park ever!
It was wonderful sharing those memories with him! I can't wait till we go back to Rhode Island and he can show me where he grew up!
It was fun hanging with my family! We then went back to my parents house and got the next round of pregnant belly pictures! Holy Cow, btw! When I took the first pictures I was only a few months along, and I thought I was pretty big! No way! I looked at those pictures and I thought, "Oh my god! I was so tiny!!!" Cause now I can't even see my feet! James got in a couple of them too! I can't wait to post them everywhere! He was down level with my belly and had his head against my belly and I had my arms around his head! They are so beautiful!!! I can't wait to share them!
Then it was back to Surprise where we're getting ready to have dinner with his parents!
I don't think I have ever enjoyed a holiday season so much in my life! I'm actually even looking forward to the whole Christmas spirit thing! Usually I'm a bit of a Grinch until the week before. But I am just so happy this year. Happier than I have ever been before!
And I owe that to the two men of my life! James and Aidan!

Hanging with the girls!

So, after my show I drove to Mesa to see the new Twilight movie "New Moon". Now, I don't really care for the movie, I'm not on any of the teams and I don't count the days till the next one. I have read the books and found them to be well written and entertaining and I can admire that the author tried something new and different with the Vampire lore. However when we can get back to Lost Boys and Interview with the Vampire type monsters again that will be nice!
Enough of Vampires being creatures that we can all fall in love with! True Blood and Twilight. They are monsters. A classic monster that has a seduction to it because that is how it lures it's prey!
Anyway. I went because this was my mom's birthday present. Hanging with her girls! And I had a great time! The two hours before the movie were spent talking and planning and laughing a ton! Also some crying when my mom and sister felt my belly and Aidan moving around. Faith and I have had our sister in laws pregnant a few times and have beautiful nieces and nephews running around, but we didn't grow up with them and we were old enough to know you don't just touch a pregnant woman's belly. That's rude. So our opportunities to feel fetal movement have been very few. I think the last time I did was when my sister was in my mom and I was kicked in the back onto the floor.
Sharing this amazing wonder of being pregnant has been wonderful to share with my mom. She is such a loving woman and so fun to be around and I don't know of a better Grandma out there. She would have everyday be Grandma day if she could. And last night having my sister share too was great! She looks forward to being a mom so much and just from that you know she's going to be a great mom.
So yes, even though the evening was filled with shrieks and sighs as two boys came on screen I did get to actually see most of the movie and it wasn't that bad. And I got to hang out with two of the coolest girls I know! And you can't ask for more than that.

Crazy Times!

So, my show opened last week and we have been getting some really wonderful reviews! That makes me happy! I enjoy being part of a show that people enjoy and want to come to! It's also been really wonderful working with Arizona Jewish Theatre. I had heard that they were very nice to work for and what do you know they are! The cast has also been very fun and I've enjoyed being able to get to know them!
Only this weekend and next left so hurry up and come!
My baby Aidan has been getting more and more active! I joke that I have a future Olympic Gymnast in me. He moves around so much. It really is the most amazing feeling in the world! I wish I could describe it! But nothing works. No words or feelings. Knowing that my baby is strong and moving and reacts to my voice when I read aloud or sing, makes me tear up! I know it sounds kinda silly but I love it! Being pregnant is starting to be really fun! The first few months, not so much! It kinda sucked in fact, but now it's all fun and wonderful!!!
I have Maegan's Bridal shower today, her mother is putting it on for her. I think that is very sweet, I remember my mom doing that! It was a great time!
Which reminds me I have to start planning a baby shower don't I? Crap! Luckily thanks to my very sweet Aunt Lana and Uncle Paul I have a car seat and stroller already! And nice ones too!! They just need to be cleaned up a little. They've been in a garage.
(Sigh) There is so much I need to get done! I have another show that I start rehearsals for .....this week? Next week? Not sure! But another show soon none the less, Joey and the Fir Tree, check out www.curriculumtheater.org! Thanks!
And then once that show is done I have full availability to try and get a job! I'll rest when I have one! It's going to be interesting, not sure how many places are going to want to employ a woman 7 months pregnant. But hey! There could be some very loving people out there! What do you know!
Anyway. That's about all that is going on right now, I'm in the process of getting plans together for Thanksgiving and getting a job and completing two wonderful shows. It should be fun!!

Things don't always go your way.

Like in the way of jobs. I made a joke at rehearsal last night that the only place hiring pregnant women was Arizona Jewish Theater. My stage mananger laughed. That and I'm so tired all the time because I'm pregnant and in the process of creating a human being. That just takes a toll.

James is being so wonderfully supporive. I don't know what I would do without him. I cry and complain that I'm not good at anything and he just looks at me in shock. He then goes on to tell me that I am the most intellegent, loving and beautiful person that he has ever met, and that he knows I can do anything and he can't wait till I know it too. That he's so proud and he couldn't have asked for a better woman to be the mother of his children.

That helps. A lot in fact. I've got a lot of pride when it comes to doing things myself and taking care of myself. The fact that I have been having a hard time of it lately hurts me. And I feel that I am failing to a degree.

Anyway. Everything else is great! Rehearsals for Fool's are so much fun! We haven't even completed the first two weeks and we have the whole thing blocked! Now, we're just running scenes and being nit picky! The cast is great fun to be around and the fast pace of the show and the silly things that happen cause a lot of cracking up and swearing to come out as we jump right back to where we were before everything got derailed!

I'm really impressed with how the cast is working with the director and how far we've all come. I've never felt a production come together so quickly before! It's been a wonderful experience.

Baby Aidan is moving around like crazy at times and it's wonderful to feel him. He loves to be read to already, and still enjoys jumping on my bladder. All the time.

I'll be having lunch with my sister tomorrow and then she's being awesome and helping me move the last of my stuff out of my old place. They need to get that room rented out. The biggest problem I have, is that I have no where to put it all. My parents have no room and I don't know anyone that does. I can't even get someone to help me by loaning a truck. It's pretty lame.

But, everything will work out. I'm going to drop an application off at Starbucks on Saturday and I'm praying that I will at least be called for an interview.

Things will turn around. And everything will work out. I know and trust that.

Poe

So, my son is an Edgar Allan Poe fan. Which I find awesome and a little creepy. I mean Aidan goes crazy when James is performing The Tell Tale Heart and I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

Still, I like that he seems to like the classics. I've started reading the complete poems of Edgar Allan Poe out loud and he seems to start moving around. It's pretty sweet! I love it!

I can't wait to start reading other stories! I bought a copy of the Just So Stories and the Canterbury Tales. I'm really looking forward to reading to him. I love it!

Baby Boy!

Yes! That is what James and I are expecting! We already have the name Adian James for our son and we couldn't be happier!

Everyone kept asking us what we wanted to have and what we thought, a lot of people had opinions of what we were going to have, but James and I didn't care.

Didn't care about what we were going have! Out thinking has always been that as long as the baby is healthy we don't care! We have been so delighted at the prospect of becoming a family that we have no preference! If we have a daughter, wonderful! If we have a son, wonderful! We've just been so overwhelmed that we can even have a child that knowing we have one on the way has been the greatest joy!

And our son, is just going to be loved! I'm going to make sure he knows how to climb trees and James is going to make sure that he becomes a good man, of course I'll have part in that as well, but the biggest thing, is James and I working together to ensure that our son knows that no matter what happens in life, he has two parents who love him. Thats really the most important thing I want my children to know. If they learn nothing else in life, I want them to know without any doubt that they are loved by their parents! And they will be!

And as soon as I figure out how to put pictures on this thing, I'll post those!

Family Ties!

Had a great day with my family today!
My brother had his 2nd son and 5th child blessed today, the baby is so tiny! I got to hold him for the first time today. My two other brothers were there, my parents and my mom's mom.
And tomorrow we have our Family Bike Ride that we try to do every Memorial Day and Labor Day. I won't be riding a bike but I will be going! Then we have swimming at my Grandma Daly's. We'll then be having a BBQ at my Uncles later too. All in all a fun filled day ahead of us!
I really love spending time with my family. They mean the world to me. I'm so glad to have their love and support. All of this would be a lot harder without them.
I'm also very lucky to have the Porters support and acceptance. They are such fun and loving people, they always make me feel so welcome whenever I am in their home. I'm so thankful for that.
All in all, a wonderful day.
Day's like this make me miss my oldest brother and his family. I wish that they weren't so far away. I haven't seen them in a few years. Sad. But things seem to be very good for them out there and that's all I care about.

Here we go.....

Ok people. Here it is. Finally I have started a blog. I'm not going to a very good blogger. I can only promise to do the very best that I can to keep you all up to date as to what is going on in life!

So! This is what is up!

I have been dating my friend James Porter who I met two years ago in a show since March 1st this year. So, about 6 months!

We started our relationship the best way in the world, both having been through such a horrible time in relationships we decided to lay everything on the table from day one. We said exactly what it was we were looking for, what we wanted in life and what we were not going to put up with. And we found that we wanted the sames things, we were looking for the sames things and we were both the opposite of what we couldn't live with. All in all, we found that we are alike enough to get along and different enough to make things interesting.

James and I determined right away that this was it! We were goners! I was in love with him and he with me! So we decided that we were going to get married this year!

Today! We are not married, but we are expecting our first baby! So.... we won't be getting married this year, but next year after March when the baby is born.

Our baby is currently almost 14 weeks old, we don't know what we're having yet but we are ready and excited to know! The due date is March 3, 2010. This is a surprise but we both knew that we wanted children, even if it came to adoption. So we are looking forward to being parents.

So. Yeah. That's about all right now. That is where we are right now!

Type ya later!